i'm a sexy asian beast

1) my face has been breaking out horribly as of late. i wish my mom would put me on birth control or something. i'm pretty sure my long-expired Benzaclin won't do anything to help it.

2) i've decided that Craisins are one of the greatest snacks on the planet (next to kettle-cooked Lays). it's pretty convenient that i have all these Craisins in 100 Calorie Packs, since my WWE endeavors have made me a little more self-concious about my weight...
but on the plus side, i'm starting to find all these low-cal foods/drinks that actually taste really good (ie: craisins, fuze, yoplait delights, etc)

3) i got my dress for concert band yesterday. since the band owns it and i'm merely renting it, i don't have to pay anything for it.
but the dress is HUGE. not like, fat-huge. like, tall-huge. it seriously looks like it's meant for a person at least seven feet tall. my mom has to sew the bottom up almost a foot because i'm...not that tall XD

4) thanksgiving is tomorrow. my sister's not coming home for said holiday, which means i have to spend thanksgiving alone with my parents.
DDDDX

5) i landed a job at JC Penney. all i do is pretty much fold clothes for 4-8 hours, because people are dickwads and can't put clothes away properly.
i'm essentially getting paid to be OCD. that said, it's really not so bad.
except that i have to work Black Friday...starting at 6:15...AM.
i'm soooo not looking forward to it. at least they're feeding me.
i can't wait till i get my license. then i can go and get my tattoo :D <3

6) getting ready to submit my college applications.
the general plan right now is to take college and MMA at the same time, while somehow juggling a part-time job in all that because i need the money for MMA and tattoos (XD). i might not get to do MMA though, if it's so expensive that i can't do that and FCW, like i want.
until last night, i hadn't really taken into consideration the expenses that would be involved with FCW. the plane trips, the living accomodations, food, transportation, and FCW itself (FCW is about $1200). MMA is $99 per month. so i might have to give up on MMA so i can afford FCW every summer until i graduate (at least until i make enough money to take FCW and MMA at the same time, or until i get onto FCW TV, in which case i'll start getting paid to wrestle).
but after i graduate college, i can just kick back and work (and hopefully take MMA) until Alex graduates. at which point we will move to Florida and continue to work/train there until the WWE picks us up.
...and you know if worse comes to worse (ie: Sarah Palin becomes president), Alex and i will just move to Toronto and train/work there until Palin gets kicked out of office for being a cunt idiot, in which case we'll move back to Florida and train/work until we get into the WWE.
i just don't want to go to college in Florida. given, it would be easier on me regarding FCW...

i dunno.

doing this for Alex. i took Monday night's episode of Raw where they did a segment with D-X (Triple H and Shawn Michaels) feuding with Hornswoggle, who was committing gimmick infringement.
Alex and i want to essentially go to the WWE and start out as valets/interns of D-X. that'd be soooo badass.
well...until Jeff and Edge come back.
XD

soooo...i decided to rewrite the D-X/Hornswoggle segment, but in the process, i included myself and Alex into the mix.
a fanfic, if you will.

( D-X and Contraband v. Hornswoggle )

if you don't recall, Hornswoggle stands at about 4'4" tall. Triple H (aka Hunter) is about 6'4".
(Shawn Michaels is 6'1"...
Jinx is 5'4"...
Vex is 5'6"...)
:D
/useless information.

i dunno...i might write more of this if i feel like it. i might even make the match a tag team match. D-Generation X vs. Contraband.
Oooo...
XD
hee.

and such...

1) i'm in the orchestra for my school's fall musical, "The Sound of Music."
it's been pretty bad so far. opening night was on Friday. Saturday afternoon was abysmal, and then Saturday evening was pretty good, actually.
and the orchestra? we're great :D
two of the musicians have told me that i sound really good, and that makes me happy <3

2) last night i went to Alex's house to focus on our WWE endeavors. we looked at some double-team moves and watched a bunch of videos.
went upstairs and played her WWE games XD.
she had two. the first one was a 2000 game. i got to create my own character, and then i had her tag team with Jeff Hardy against Triple H and Edge.
haha i got beaten so badly. i forgot who pinned me. probably Triple H...
then Alex decided to put me in a Royal Rumble match with 30 people in it O__o. i actually did pretty well. i was eventually thrown out of the ring by, i think, the Rock.
playing as Jeff Hardy, i beat Lance Storm. don't know who that is...

then we played her 2004 game. Jeff sadly wasn't in it, cuz i think that game was released during the time he worked for TNA. so i played as his brother Matt instead.
i was in 6-person tornado match or something, where we're all in the ring at once. i was like, the third person to get pinned. so while i was on the outside waiting for the in-ring action to finish up, i was beating up on Shawn Michaels and Rey Mysterio. it was disappointing, because apparently they don't fight back when on the outside.
Alex put me in a 6-person elimination chamber match against like, three guys and two girls. i didn't get to finish up or see it through cuz mom called me halfway through saying that she was going to pick me up. so i didn't get to do much, but at least i made Torrie Wilson tap out :D

i so want a PS2 now, so i can play WWE and Guitar Hero.
XD yaaaay.

1) so my owl came back recently. i think he brought a friend.
i was doing my government reading last night and an owl outside my house starting hooting off the hook. eventually dad got really intrigued and went outside. i followed.
there were two owls sitting on the roof of my neighbor's house across the street from me. both of them were hooting loudly.
one of them flew down and landed on the street two houses over from me. attacked something, then looked over and glared at me. attacked the thing some more before flying back up on to the roof next to the other owl.
eventually they both flew off.
i was captivated by how silently they moved. it was awesome.

2) WWE Raw was amazing this week. Snoop Dogg guest hosted. which obviously meant that Triple H and Shawn Michaels had to try and act black. but given that they're both white, it didn't go over too well.

( DX tries to be black )

3) friday was the last home football game of the season (thank god). i recalled some memories with Evan.
see, over the last four years i've been going to the varsity football games, i've experienced some interesting things.

( they are as follows )

so...i've been under a lot of stress lately. what with school, band, and college and all...
i guess i finally hit my breaking point yesterday. i won't go into details.

yesterday i also found an LJ community where you get to post the unsent letters you never sent to people. angry letters, hateful letters, sad letters, whatever.
i've used it to vent. it feels really good being able to write down my thoughts like i'm sending it. it feels good to vent.

i'm feeling considerably better today. i was laughing and smiling today, which is far cry from how i was acting yesterday.
guess i just needed to sleep it off.

i also watched the first half of WWE Raw last night. very amazing XD.
i think i love Triple H. he's ridiculously awesome.

i have more college workshops tonight. hopefully this will be less scary than last week's.

--

on a different note...

we all know that i'm aspiring to form a Divas tag team with my friend Alex, right? yeeeppp.
i recently changed my ring name, one of my finishers, and our tag team name. my new ring name matches Alex's sort of.
(her name is Vex and my new one is Jinx)
it's cool. we both like the new gimmick better than our last one.

:D

i've been feeling severely apathetic/nihilistic since i got out of the shower today.

they say you do your best thinking in the shower. i must have thought up a shitload.
i wasn't allowed to watch WWE Superstars today, because dad's oppression and tyricanical control over the TV hindered that desire. i told him such and he brushed it off.
made me wonder...how would he and mom, and even my sister for that matter, take the news when i tell them that Alex and i are going to pursue a WWE career?
went back to wondering if would be able to go to college...if they won't help me pay for wrestling school, i just flat out won't go to college so i can work full time so i can fucking pay for it myself. i just want to be able to go to college so i can say that i actually got an education and i have something to fall back on in case wrestling doesn't work out, or if wrestling does work out and i retire eventually.
whether i go to college or not, i do know this: i'm going to be working on a WWE career one way or another, whether they like it or not.

they won't like it. i know they won't. but this isn't about making them happy. this is about making me happy. i don't fucking care if they hate me for this. i've chosen a career and a path that will be satisfying and rewarding to me, and will make me successful and happy. that's all that fucking matters.
that's all.
they'll probably bitch about it and say that if i'm going to wrestle anyway, i might as well not go to college and save them the money and trouble. i still want to go to college though. i'm hoping i can at least make mom see my side of the picture.
i'm going to go so fucking crazy when i move out. i'll love every moment of it though.
they'll probably disown me or something if/when i go crazy and start (hopefully) working for the WWE.


it'll so be worth it though.

hells yes.
Dethklok is coming to Los Angeles in november. i don't think i'll be able to go see them though, which sucks. they just came out with a new album, which i'll be asking for for my birthday/christmas.
i would not go to another state to see Dethklok, but i would go to another city. considering that in november, they'll be in LA and i...don't live in LA.

:D

NNRRRRGGGHHHH COLLEGE AAARRRRGGHHH.
this sucks. can i just not go to college? DX

so. term 2 of senior year. i'm supposed to take IB Art/TA yearlong, but i'm dropping it so i can take Chinese 4.
i've recently decided that i'm also going to be replacing Dark Room Photography with Physics H.
i really don't want to do physics, but i definitely want to increase my chances of getting in to UCSC, which (i think) is where i want to go. as far as CSU schools go, my councelor said i'm a shoo-in.
so let's work on those UC schools, shall we?
i could be like, the female version of John Morrison.
(John Morrison is a WWE wrestler, one of my favs. he graduated from UC Davis)
plus i don't want my family to think i'm a sell out for skipping college and going right in to a wrestling career. boo. at least if i go to college, i can call my major/degree a "fall back plan".
so it was either take Physics or Math Analysis (again). i've already taken the required years of math and science for CSU/UC eligibility. the additional years are recommended. i did horribly in Math Analysis, and apparently the same guy is teaching it this year, so that was kind of an automatic "NO, I'M NOT TAKING MATH AGAIN." that guy taught me jack shit.
i actually dropped out of Physics last year because it was scary and confusing. but i'm willing to give it another go, if it means impressing UCSC.

so yeah. physics.
hooooo raaaaahhh.

1) our football team has been just dominating this year. friday was the homecoming game. we played Simi Valley, and just absolutely destroyed them.
we won 55-12, something like that.
go football guys :D

( extensive story behind the cut )

3) turns out i lied. we didn't go to San Luis Obispo/San Jose last week like we planned. my sister and her roommate had problems with the previous tennants of their new appartment, and now they're set to move this week.
:D

1) I'M EXHAUSTED.
everyone says senior year, you get to kick back and party. it's soooo much fun.
nope.
i'm getting hit with more work than i have in all my high school career. i'm behind on my reading (again), i did...not so well on my government test, and i have a theory that Art IB is slowly killing me. i'm supposed to have that class every other day, and on the non-art days, i TA for a teacher. i'm using my TA days to work on my art projects, much more often than i would like, just so i can turn my projects in on time.
i've decided that if i go to UCSC, i'm going to major in foreign language. that means i should probably take Chinese 4 this year. well turns out it's only offered 4th period. that's the period i have the Art/TA rotation. so i'm going to see if i can drop TA and replace it with every-other-day Chinese.
but...i need the TA days to work on my projects AND if i only go to Chinese every other day, i'd be missing quite a lot.
hmm...

2) got a new cell phone :D
it's a Samsung Intensity. got a keyboard and everything. i don't like that my bag/pocket mashes its number buttons and then calls them.
boo.
and i can put music on it! <3 i found that out when i was trying to put ringtones on it rather than just downloading ringtones...
ha.

3) Alex and i are starting to get serious about becoming WWE wrestlers when we graduate college.
i still haven't told my family. doubt they'd take it well. they don't even like that i watch wrestling.
then again, i don't give a fuck.

4) i'm going to San Luis Obispo this weekend. i'm taking off right after school on friday, which means i get to skip that night's football game.
(though my douchebag director is making me do a make-up assignment in lieu of going to the game. like, i have to write an essay or something, which is bullshit).
we're helping my sister and her roommate move to San Jose. my sister got a job up there and their current landlady's a freaking idiot, so it's good on two counts.
i was just in San Luis Obispo this past weekend. and i get to go back in two days :D
i'll see if i can go visit some colleges while i'm up there, but knowing dad and his ">:[" impatient attitude, i won't be able to.
you know what, i took a virtual tour of UCSC, that's good enough.

5) AND I'M SICK! someone got me fucking sick!


i want an AriZona Green Tea Lemonade now.

1) so i've decided not to do wrestling at my school this year, despite my previous post ranting about it.
it has nothing to do with my dad telling me i couldn't.
my schoolwork is taking a lot out of me. IB Art will probably be the death of me before the term is even over. granted, taking wrestling in high school would probably be a good jump start on my MMA training, but i'd rather to MMA and wrestling in an environment free of parental opression.

2) and speaking of which?
Alex and i are completely enamored with the idea of becoming WWE Divas tag team partners in the future. we've spent all this week planning out our future.
i'm going to graduate one year ahead of her, so while i'm in college i'll be taking MMA lessons (with an emphasis in wrestling). once alex graduates and she joins me wherever i am at the time, we'll do wrestling school together. once we both graduate, we'll go work at a bunch of indy promos. apparently we're starting in Ontairo, because she really wants to go to Ontario (because Trish Stratus and Edge are there).
whatever.
our goal is to work really hard and get established enough that we get noticed. because then hopefully the WWE will notice us and recruit us. it would be a lot better than just outright begging Vince McMahon for a job.
and of course i'll be doing MMA on the sideline :D

super awesome.

1) seems that dad won't drive me to wrestling after school.
wrestling doesn't actually start until november, but all members have to do weight room three days a week until then. i asked dad today if he'd drive me to weight room and he said no.
wtf you're denying me my dreams so you can watch Jim Cramer? just fucking record it.
i'm going to find a way around this. i'm not giving up.

2a) alex and i have pretty much decided that we're going to be WWE Divas when we grow up. she's in love with Edge so she's going to be his valet, and i'm in love with Jeff Hardy so i'm going to be his valet.
...and then somehow alex and i will also be our own divas tag team. and then make edge and jeff like each other again so the four of us can be one huge tag team.
then somehow throw jeff's brother Matt in there too...
we're going to single-handedly decimate the WWE, while at the same time, making it more awesome than it's ever been.
2b) i'm becoming a lot like my wrestling OC Ellie Blackwood. in the prequel of the story i'm writing right now, her past is revealed, and we find out that after high school, she couldn't go to college because her parents wouldn't fund her wrestling career. so she didn't go to college so she could work full time to pay for her apartment and wrestling school.
if my parents are this against me being a wrestler when i grow up, i may not get to go to college D:
but whatever i decide, MMA or wrestling, i'm going to do it. with or without their help (although i'm pretty sure mom will be mostly chill with it. she already knows she can't stop me)

3) Jeff Hardy's court hearing is Sept. 30.
alex is saying he'll just get probation. i'm hoping so. that way he can do what he wanted, like working with his band, healing his injuries, and getting his reality show off the ground.
alex and i want to know more about his reality show so we can be on it now :D


I SUPPORT JEFF HARDY <3

i've been misinformed.
on friday, my school made an announcement that there would a wrestling meeting today after school. i was like "oh cool i'll check it out".
so i went home after school to wait out the hour and a half before the meeting started. the whole time i was wondering if i really wanted to go, if i wanted to wrestle this winter. i ultimately decided to go.
outside of the boys' activity room (where the meeting was), i encountered two returning wrestlers, who happened to be female. they said they had to leave, but told me to go to the meeting because "we need more girls". i'm like "okay, cool" so i walk inside the room.
i get inside and i see a bunch of boys sitting in the bleachers in the corner. as soon as i get inside, they all start staring at me.
Me: DX...
i take a seat in the bleachers and wait, since i didn't know anyone there. eventually the coach walks in and he looks around. he sees me, and stares at me, and continues to stare at me while he's walking.
Me: DX...
he asks me if i'm a wrestler (in a really deep, gruff, stereotypical sports coach voice) and i say i don't know, i'm just trying it out. one of the boys actually told the coach i was a spectator. i kind of wanted to kick him.
i notice that all the boys are decked out in PE uniforms. i'm like "am i missing something?". then the coach starts pairing people off, and when he's done, i have no partner.
"am i mising something?"
then the coach tells the boys to go start lifting weights.
"AM I MISSING SOMETHING??"
apparently the announcements could have been um, better. i was not appropriately dressed for weight lifting so the coach told me to come back on wednesday, where'd he pair me off with one of the girls. so i left.

I FELT SOOOO AWKWARD...

1) sleptover at kaylin's yesterday after watching a True Blood marathon on hbo.
WOW. so much fake blood and sex.
still lame, though.

2) going to the wrestling meeting tomorrow ;D
might actually do it this year.

3) ZOMFG I COULD CRY.
my favorite (male) wrestler in the world Jeff Hardy got arrested on friday for possession of drugs. apparently police found prescription drugs, sterioids, and cocaine in his house.
pwmania.com says that the police recieved a tip about it several days earlier, which is why police searched his house to begin with. on one hand i'm pissed that the tipper couldn't just stay out of jeff's business and leave him alone. and on the other hand, i think that jeff getting arrested is for the better. at least now, it's out there and he can get the help he needs. if the police had never gotten that tip, who knows what would have happened to jeff.

I'M SO DEPRESSED.
and i was having such a good weekend...

1) Jeff Hardy left WWE
DX -crycrycry-
it's totally legit, though. his brother Matt blogged that Jeff had like, two herniated disks in his back, neck pains, and restless leg syndrome.
i heard he'll be back in about several months to a year, and alex says he'll be back in four months.
(not-so-secretly hopes it's the latter)
i miss him already.

2) two of my recently graduated boys came to visit my school today. they ambushed me at lunch. i was quite surprised. pleased, but surprised.

3) my new friend andrea let me drink like, half of her Monster in art class today.
i'm so not going to be able to sleep tonight.
speaking of art...i just finished drawing a giant fucking ass shoe in charcoal yesterday. today i started working on a marker wash project. my subject is the Monster i was drinking. looks pretty cool right now, but god i hate this project already.
IB Art will be the death of me...if AP Gov't and English don't kill me first
DX

4) trying to dowload more music. my internet sucks. it keeps downloading the first 14 or so seconds of the song before giving up.
trying to download some Hollywood Undead right now. the download seems to be going smoothly...

5) been playing Pokemon (ruby) lately, and i've been entering a lot of contests.
i'm trying to enter my Wiscach (however you spell it...) in a Master Rank cuteness contest, and i'm really getting in to it.
"WHY THE HELL DON'T PEOPLE LIKE TOKI? I GAVE HIM LIKE, FIVE HUNDRED CUTENESS ENHANCING POKEBLOCKS!!"
"DAMNIT STOP INTIMIDATING MY POKEMON! WHY AM I ONLY SECOND PLACE??"
it's pretty insane.
and yes, i named my Wischach Toki. because he has a badass handlebar mustache. just like Toki.

<3

so i missed Raw yesterday and am now making up for it by watching it on YouTube. i had read the results online already, and knew that DX was making fun of Vince, but i didn't know just how funny it was.

seems that yesterday was also Vince McMahon's birthday. Triple H and Shawn Michaels come down to celebrate, but didn't know how old he was. they start putting out random numbers like, 84. then:

Shawn: (whisper whisper)
(crowd chants "eighty-four")
Triple H: woah, hold on, i'm sorry, my bad. it's Vincent Kennedy McMahon's seventy-fourth birthday!
(crowd chants "seventy-four")
Shawn: (whisper whisper)
Triple H: ah, hold on, i'm sorry, my mistake. he's actually seventy, and uh...
Vince: i'm sixty-four!
Triple H: D8! oh my god!
Shawn: OH YOU TOLD EVERYBODY HOW OLD YOU ARE!
Tripel H: you're 64?! and you admit that on live TV?!
Shawn: in front of the entire world!
Vince: DX...just...just leave.

i'm so bumbed that i missed it on monday.
XD so funny. i love D-X.

1) so last night my cable went out. conveniently, right before WWE Raw started and then came back on after Raw was over.
DOUBLE-YOU TEE FREAKING EFF, MAN?
Time Warner Cable: ohp! no Raw for you! HAHAHAHA.
i'm trying to watch it on youtube right now, but because my internet sucks, it'll take a while. made me sad though. i read the results online and it seemed like a really cool episode. D-Generation X came back and made fun of Vince McMahon on his birthday :D
yaaaay D-X!

2) i'm looking to buy some Jeff Hardy paraphernalia. dan says he can get jordan to make the armbands for me, so long as he doesn't tell him they're for me.
i still want to punch jordan in the face.
i'm also looking for a Jeff Hardy necklace. i found one on eBay for a dollar, but the shipping was TWELVE DOLLARS! what the hell, man?

3) had another job interview yesterday. it was my second interview at that store.
...okay. i guess they lost the papers from my first interview.

4) spent my weekend in San Luis Obispo.
the weather started out over here at about 80 degrees. by the time we got to SLO, the temp had dropped to 60 degrees.
and then it rained the next day.
...HUH?


NNNRRRGGGGGHHHH I WANT TO WATCH RAW! DAMN YOU, TIME WARNER CABLE!!!

DON'T EVEN GET ME STARTED.

i'm rather squishy, and i don't like it. i used to have a gym membership, but canceled it for all of the following reasons:
1) i don't like working out in public/in front of other people, even though they're all doing the exact same thing.
2) my dad's too cheap and lazy to drive me to the gym
3) i don't like working out/using machines without being told what to do (i was fine doing it in PE, because my teacher had us on a schedule)

personal trainers are like, $80 an hour.
D8

i'd go out running, but i don't like running and it's summer.
so hopefully once i go to college and get myself some MMA lessons, the MMA will help shape me up and give me the motivation i need to get off my lazy ass and exercise.

1) new icon :3
it's Jeff Hardy, a WWE superstar. he's suddenly become my new love interest.
interesting how i got over Seth Green so quickly...
<3

2) i've been downloading a lot of music lately...or at least, trying to. i say trying because my internet sucks and my dad's too cheap to spring for DSL we have dial-up and it takes FOREVER to download something.
i've managed to download a few Gym Class Heroes and Fall Out Boy. right now i'm after "Just Dance" by Lady Gaga, but all of my trusted free mp3 sites are crapping out on me.
i've been trying to download "just dance" all day, and the longest piece of music i've gotten before the download quit is about 49 seconds.
FUUUUUCCCCKKKK...
i probably have a bad connection. i'll try again tomorrow. i'll also spring for a version of "this ain't a scene it's an arms race" that doesn't suck.

3) got my unofficial senior year schedule today.  it is as follows:

Term 1                                                    Term 2
p.1 Concert Band                                  p.1 Concert Band
p.2 Theater 1                                          p.2 Photography 1-2
p.3A US Government and Politics     p. 3A Government and Econ
p.3B AP English Lit and Comp          p. 3B same
p.4A IB Art                                               p.4A same
p.4B TA-Mrs. Stone                               p.4B same
p.5 Jazz Band?                                      p.5 Jazz Band and/or Wrestling?

or something like that.

4) MY EYES ARE ITCHY. WTF.
(takes out contact lenses...)
ah. they're okay now.
...
MY CONTACTS MAKE MY EYES ITCHY. WTF.

1) so...i didn't get the job.
seems that they want an open availability so they can call you up at all hours of the day to transfer new shipments from the truck into the store. since i'm still in school, i can't offer that kind of availability.
but the lady who interviewed me seems to like me, and told me to come back and see her again during holiday season.
so there's still a chance

2) dude i can drive. i drove to the mall and back today. i find that i can park the car better than mom can.
i told dad that i drove to the mall and he's like "oh YEAH. i was watching some segment on the news about police in pursuit of a sporadic and crazy driver on the 101 South..."
and i said "oh well it must not have been me then, because i took the local road. score one for me."

3) saturday i did community clean up with the band, despite not being in marching band anymore. i thought it would be really chill, since it has been for the last few years...
Freshman year: i was put on trash pick up duty. i met Kirk Cameron that day.
Sophomore and Junior year: they dumped us on a street lined with pine trees and made us rake up the pine needles.
this year: they took us to a wilderness trail on the end of a residential street. to the side of the trail, there was an area in which they had planted a bunch of baby trees. over time, a ton of weeds and pricker bushes grew next to the trees, being douchebags and hoarding their water and oxygen. so we spent three and a half hours removing said weeds and pricker bushes.
i was very itchy afterward.

4) i got new pants today! =D
but of course my shortness has put me at a disadvantage, and the pants i bought were way too long for me. mom will fix it later.
i also found some shoes that i want. they're awesome hawt shoes that are like pretend hi-top converse in which the high part folds over and it's blue on the inside. we didn't buy them because we only had one coupon, which we used to buy my pants with.
they would be so awesome with like, skinny jeans...
OR...
shorts, but i'm also wearing black over-the-knee socks.

=3

so now i'm in pursuit of cool shoes...and socks.